Tuesday, August 06, 2002 :::
whoa ... it's been a while huh? ... what have i been doing? NWN, apparently ... but i haven't touched that game in almost a week ... wow ... anyways ... why am i choosing to post now? besides the fact that i haven't done so in a while? ... well, no reason ... juss a few things i'd like to mention ...
Sun Tzu is a really good book ... gilby told me that it's a prerequired read for all business men ... i on the other hand have found it useful for several aspects of life ... another thing, astrology rocks, but with my favorite site down, i can't do much, shiet ... ah well ... i think i'm loosing touch of my principles, better re read 7 habits again ... *sigh* it's not that i've forgotten my principles, i'm juss loosing a will to follow it ... i downloaded 2 of Shakira's CDs, ((eww, didn't like Laundry Service, but Donde Estan Los Ladrones rocked)), and Swollen Member's Bad Dreams ... still have ryan's Avril Lavigne CD, and Ming's book ... lolz, my sister loves that book ... Nam's party was fun ... shoulda taken a Smirnoff Ice instead of a Mike's ... got a job, getting paid $7.25/hr, pretty descent, haven't got used to it yet ((it's doing product demonstrations at stores, eww)), but i'm hoping to get another job, like my sister's at Rogers ... volunteer is starting to become fun, now lisa's there with me had strange dreams lately ... i'm pretty sure they're trying to tell me something, and i think i know what ... but i'm reluctant to act towards it ... reading Dragonlance Autumn Twilight, good read ... ohh! started a world of my own, already got the pantheon done, complete with more than 30 gods, and i'm writing a story for it ... tho i'd rather do an adventure, but i'm doubting anybody's willingness to commit to a serious campaign that'll last a bit more than two or three nights ...
... okay, time for a rant ... hah! you didn't think i was gonna end this one in less than one page did you? lolz ... anyways, turns out i think to much? ... can you believe it? me? thinking too much? ... ok, well maybe it's true ... maybe i over-analyze things too much ... and i spend to much time in thought, that i hardly get anything done ... and i concentrate on trivial matters like psycology and astrology, as well as hobbies like D&D, writing my own stories and adventures ... maybe i spend too much time regreting the past and fearing the future, trying to learn from my mistakes and plan for the future, but never accomplishing anything in the long run ... maybe i spend too much time trying to solve problems, that i come up with a useless answer, because they're a bit too unwise and a bit too late ... but you know what? whatever! ... so what if i think too much, or spend too much time theorizing? ... ok, maybe i should try a little harder on trying to act rather than think ... but dammit, that's who i am ... if i'm not given into passionate enthusiasm about something, the most i can do is analyze it ... and even nowadays, when i am given into passion, i still think ... the only problem i see with that is that sometimes i make bad decisions, but hey, that's how i learn ... but ok, i'll admit, and i'll promise to try and stay in thought less often, and in action more often ... maybe then i'll learn faster? ... oh well ... ok, so this wasn't more than a page long, but meh ... i have to stop thinking right? ... as of the moment, there are several things threatening to haunt my mind for the rest of the week ... but i gotta put all that aside, and maybe then i can find some peace ...
